My race is 6 days away, probably less by the time you’re reading this. As the race has gotten closer, my anxiety levels have gotten higher. Questions and doubt have been running through my mind, can I finish? Will I finish in a decent time? Why is this so hard? Last week’s two horrible runs did not help ease my anxiety, they definitely made it worse.
I definitely have anxiety issues with pretty much everything in life. I’m just someone who gets anxious and feeds off of that anxiety. Most of the time it makes me perform better, but I’m not sure that will be the case with running. Running is just as much mental as it is physical. I’m trying to stay upbeat and positive but it’s not easy.
Friday morning I woke up with an awful sore throat and a cough. I went for a run anyways, but I shortened the time on it. I ended up having a great run, I was supposed to do 4 strides in 30 minutes. Since I only had 20 minutes for my run, I ran as fast as I could for the first mile, which ended up being my fastest mile by 1 min 40 sec, at 9 min 41 sec. I ran the mile back to my apartment at an easy pace.
By Friday afternoon I felt like crap and I knew this was not going to be good for my training. I planned on going to the race course on Saturday for my 40 min easy run. I really wanted to run the course ahead of time to gain confidence. I woke up on Saturday still feeling like crap, even though I slept for over 10 hours. I attempted to do one of my strength training circuits and had to give up after two times through only do the upper body exercises.
This morning I woke up feeling much better and decided to get out the door and running before my body realized I was still sick. My goal was to run the entire 40 minutes without walking and making it 3.1 miles. I knew I wasn’t 100% so I just took it slow. I did both!
Finishing and making it 3.1 miles has given me a nice lil confidence boost. I know I can run the whole distance, even when sick. I’m looking forward to seeing how much I can push my body and how quickly I can finish it in.
Unless I get the urge to write earlier, the next time you hear from me will be after my race, hopefully I’ll have good news for you. Send me lots of run fast vibes on Saturday!